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don't worry about me- I'LL BE FINE
FINDING IT HARD TO CARE NOW I JUST DON’T GIVE A FUCK THESE DAYS IS IT GOOD OR BAD I DON’T REALLY KNOW I DON’T THINK ABOUT IT I ISE TO CARE FOR LIFE SO MUCH I ISE TO KNOW GOD I USE TO BE WHO YOU WANTED TO BE YOU DON’T KNOW ME ANYMORE I TRIED SO HARD TO BE SOMEONE THAT I LOST THE TRUTH ALONG THE WAY I WALK ALONG WITHOUT MY SOUL I WALK THESE STREETS NOT KNOWING A THING AND I DON’T EVEN CARE SOME DAYS I WIHIS I COULD SIT DOWN AND WEEP BUT THE TEARS DON’T COME MY HEART IS HOLLOW AND INTO MY BONES IT NOW CREEPS THE EMPTINESS ENGULFS ME I HAVE LOST MY PURPOSE
I’M WRONG, I’M WRONG, I’M WORNG BUT YOU DON’T ACCUSE YOU’RE WEAK, YOU’RE SO WEAK ONLY SO MUCH OF YOU TO USE LIKE NATURE IN YOUTH BEAUTIFUL AND APPARENTLY STRONG YOU ONLY BEND SO FAR BEFORE YOU BREAK BUT I STAND THROUGH THE STORM I’M ALONE, I’M ALONE, I’M ALONE BUT YOU DON’T KNOW YOU’RE OBLIVIOUS, YOU’RE SO OBLIVIOUS TO ME ONLY SO MUCH OF YOU TO GO AROUND JUST DON’T BOTHER ABOUT ME BECAUSE I’LL BE AROUND FOR ALL TIME I ONLY BEND SO FAR BEFORE I BREAK BUT THE BONES HEAL SO MUCH STRONGER LET IT SLEEP; LET YESTERDAY SLEEP FORGET ABOUT IT DEAR LEAVE IT ALONE, LEAVE IT BE AND JUST FORGET ABOUT ME FORGET THAT IT WAS ‘WE’ LET ME SLEEP, GIVE ME DREAMLESS SLEEP
SUN RISES AND I’M MOVING ON YEAH, I’M MOVING AND I’M RUNNING AND I TRY TO GET AWAY BUT I FIND MYSELF TRYING TO BE CLOSER TO YOU I’VE BEEN REJECTED I’VE BEEN LET DOWN I’VE BEEN PLAYED NOW LET ME DROWN I REMEMBER WHY I WAITED BECAUSE I COULD NOT DEAL WITH HURT NOW MY CHEST IS ACHING OH, IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS AND WHAT WAS IT WORTH? THESE FUCKING PROMISES I TOLD HIM HE WAS HUMAN I SAID- DON’T MAKE PROMISES! BUT HE PROMISED HE LIED AND IT HURTS!
I WANTED TO BE THERE BUT YOU WOULD NOT LET ME WHEN WE PLAYED IT WAS BY YOUR RULES I HELD ON BECAUSE YOU ASKED ME TO YOU PLEADED WITH ME SO I TOLD YOU MY SECRETS BUT YOU LEFT WHEN THE STORM CAME BUT I WAITED FOR YOU NOW I FEEL SO STUPID THAT I LET YOU IN BY CRIKEY I ALMOST DID WHAT????
LONELY AS HELL (WILL IT BE LONELY IN HELL?) WITH NO GOD TO PRAY TO NONE LEFT OF THE LOVE THAT I GAVE TO HIM EMPTY AS THE BLACKNESS IN MY ROOM IVE GOT NOTHING IN THE WAY OF FAITH YOU THOUGHT MY STRENGTH YOU WOULD NOT SHAKE WELL , I ASKED YOU FOR LOVE AND THEN YOU TOOK IT AWAY! SO I WITHER INTO THE PEOPLE I HATE I HAVE NO FEAR BUT I KNOW I ALSO HAVE NO GRACE I LAUGHED IN YOUR HOLY FACE NOW PUT ME IN MY PLACE I USE TO WANT TO DIE TO BE THERE NOW I WANT TO DIE TO JUST SLEEP
WHAT SCARES THE HELL OUT OF ME NOW IS THAT HE DOSENT EVEN HAUNT ME SOME NIGHTS HE’S WITH ME IN MY DREAMS BUT I CANT SEE NO, I CANT SEE HIM ANYMORE I WANNA DIE SOME DAYS SOME DAYS IT BURNS SO BAD TO HAVE SPOKE OF LOVE AND TO KNOW THAT IT IS LOST NOW ITS SO FUCKING SAD BECAUSE I CANT THINK OF WHAT I DID I WANT TO BLAME HIM AND THEN I BLAME MYSELF LIKE MAYBE I DID IT ALL WRONG I THOUGH WE SAID ‘WITHOUT CONDITIONS’ I THINK ABOUT HIM EVERY DAY WONDERING WHY WE HAD SO MUCH BUT NOW IT’S DEAD? WHAT.. DID I PUSH TOO HARD? MAYBE WHY DID I PUSH? FEAR BUT.. HE SHUT ME OUT FIRST THERE WAS A REASON FOR THE PUSHING BUT WAS THERE A REASON FOR THE FEAR? THE GUT FEELING WAS TO LET GO AND THE TEARS DON’T COME NO TEARS ON MY PILLOW JUST BROKEN PRAYERS AND LIES PRIDE KEEPS US APART SO HE WONT BE BACK
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